BEING AND BECOMING

Can't you see our complex we are when we pause to reflect?  So much is revealed about our understanding of this phenomena called masonry. All surgeons are alike, that they have specialized skill sets.  Their specialty within the specialty shows us different applications require even more.  I like this analogy. It flatters us all with a motif that is only thought of when needed.  We revere the skills of medicine not as a walk around thought but when the context becomes personal.  A wife, a child; a best friend, a neighbour, then they become significant. Is it so hard to associate them with a prayer? My affinity for the GAOTU becomes crystal clear but the confusion comes later. Am I the diest I thought I was and is the connection with spirituality still strong?   Yes of course there is a point to be made and it involves the way we pause and think about who and what we are. Are we struggling with ambivalence about becoming and being one when we consider our relatiohship with old, masonic oaths? Looking at each other we couldn't tell, so instead we are left to assume each one of us is true to those obligations. When we consider the options, it is not so bad to make that assumption. We see the individuality as differences. We struggling with a longing for the truth to be simple...but it never is. To find a beautiful outcome we need some way to explain contradictions. I think it is for this reason, we shy away.  If a brother is disatisfied, he will live in that bubble. The careful observer will see what the casual glance would never suspect. During life of a mason the sense of being one, comes in hindsight. It safely leaves us ground for further improvement, which might be one of the most challenging elements, learning to stop feeding our ego and get on with life. If it is as I believe a truism, we become what we do, I wneed to know, is this clumsy version of a complete man is capable of refinement and sincerity.